Ending 2013

Ending 2013

Tomorrow is the First blank page of a 365 page book… Insha Allah i will try my best to write a good one 🙂

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“Better Place”
Come get lost with me to a place
where there’s no complication
no misunderstanding
no negativity
no judgement
no harsh words
no pain
no cruelty

only equality
support
caring
love
joy
happiness

where the sunlight hits the grass
and makes it sparkle
where there’s endless possibility
and bright light after every dark tunnels
where there’s helping hands for every unfortunate
dedication and modesty
peace and harmony
respects and purity

(December 4, 2013)

“Better Place”

Sincere Apology

Lets take a second and see
If I can express how sincerely sorry I’m
I don’t know what I was thinking
At that moment I was so emotional
Blinded by hurt and pain
Anger clouded my brain
I thought I was played once again
The one I trusted and loved betrayed me
That’s what I felt
Babe, you didn’t try to talk to me
I thought you didn’t care and I wasn’t important
And I just jumped to a conclusion
My anger and hurt took over me
Now that I realized my mistake
I realized how much I messed up things
How much you mean to me
How much I have hurt you
Babe, please find it in your heart to see
That I am sincerely sorry
I truly love you
Those words didn’t mean a thing
(12/21 11:02pm)

Sincere Apology…

Between Them

Sometimes she still can’t help but blame herself
For how things turned out between them
She still hates herself for writing those things to him
For trying to act like she is all above him
And for trying to make him feel low

She just pray that Allah forgives her
That is not the kind of person she wants to be
Maybe they weren’t truly meant to be
It would have ended some way eventually
But she guesses she is the reason for it
Because Allah wants her to be better
Than who she has been

He had hurt her like nobody ever done before
Remembering it makes her sad about it all
She wonders if he will reflect on his actions
If he will ever feel bad for how he threw her away
Maybe he will, maybe he won’t
Only Allah knows what’s in his heart

She just wants to be forgiven
Never wants to repeat
Those kinds of words on anyone else
She just wants to look back and smile
Without having to feel sad
For how it turned out between them

(12/31/13… 4:39 PM)

Between Them …

December 31,2013

grateful

A friend of mine asked me what i was doing around the evening time and i told him i was trying to write. He was like he didn’t know that i write. So i told him I write sometimes…poetry. short stories… then he suggested to make a wordpress account and blog them. I don’t really want my personal life to be so out in the open but i thought its not a bad idea. I do enjoy creative writing. So I just want others to see it as… Art … creativity 🙂

I still can’t believe today is the last day of 2013 and in couple of hours our date will end with 2014.. I have to say it has been a great year. There’s so many new things I did and so many new people i met. there were good times and some bad times. Days i can look back and smile about and days i can look back to and feel regret and sad about. I am grateful of all of them because i believe i learned a lot this year, grew from my mistakes and experience and there’s still so much to learn. there is still so many mistakes i will make but that is part of life right? we can’t really learn if we don’t make mistake. it may hurt a lot, guilt and regrets may drive me insane at times but at the end of it all i just have to remember my Lord. He test us to make us better. And after every trail comes ease. Guilt and regrets are blessing because that means He still kept my heart soft and gave me the sight to see my faults to correct myself.I am looking forward to what Allah has in hold for me in 2014 and in the years ahead. A lot can happen. Only he knows what is in our heart better than we do. But insha-Allah it will a better year than all the previous years because i striving to be good, better than who i was, put my trust on Him more than i ever did before. After all, Allah loves those who do good and put their trust on Him. I am grateful to have whoever came in my life and didn’t leave and look forward to making lots of wonderful memories with them.

2014 will be awesome, Insha-allah

I will be a better version of me, Insha-allah 🙂

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