I said goodbye to him about 6 months ago
Everything has been said and done
There’s nothing left to feel bad
It is 100% over
I am moving on
He is moving on
I am living another life
I am not the same girl as I was then
Lot has happened and lot has changed
I will not let his memory haunt me or sadden me
I let go of the last pieces of message I had
I had to because they aren’t needed
Everything is going to be fine
I will not cry for him again
I have already said goodbye
I will not need to say it again
All is said and done
I’m moving on
He moved on
That is all

I said goodbye …

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“This is good! Allah Almighty knows best.”

whatever happens, happens for the best, because Allah knows best and nothing happens without his Will

“This is good! …

You don’t know who I am
But you know part of my story
You maybe able to relate to some part
Or you maybe curious to know the whole ending
Or maybe you even came up with some conclusion of your own
You think you got it all figured out
Or you just whatever it and slide down
And move on to a different post
It’s alright really,
I am not looking for an audience
I am just writing to let my thoughts out
Writing to remember what i felt
So maybe some years from now
when i no longer remember what i did today
I can just read this and remember
And i might and laugh at my own thoughts
Its just fun to look back at memories
Because sometimes they do really make you smile and laugh
And you can see how much things have changed
and how much you have changed as well
Yep, thoughts
These are all thoughts
I don’t even know what the next line is going to be

You don’t know …

Sometimes its really tough to not get sad by things that happen in life
No matter how many times you try to tell yourself whatever meant to happen, happens
That it is all part of your life,
That it is a test,
That its a lesson you needed in your life to learn
To make a better life
To make a better future
Better choice and whatnot
Even knowing all that sometimes you still break down
Sometimes tears starts to fill your eyes
without knowing why
and you start to cry
You cry like you are in so much pain
But your body is physically fine
You wonder why
You might even ask for forgiveness
Wish for peace in your heart
Wish to not make mistakes that leaves you feeling empty inside
Wish to be guided
Wish to live a good life

Sometimes its r…

I cried today
But I don’t even know why I cried
Only Allah knows really

There’s a restless feeling inside of me
I don’t know for what reason

I shouldn’t be crying for him
I hope the tears I shade weren’t for that reason
I don’t want him back
No, I don’t
Not after all that happened

I don’t even think what he had for me was love
He was a confused boy, wasn’t even a man
He wasn’t even sure about what he wants

I should know that it’s for the best
I should not look back nor shade tears

I cried today
B…

Sometimes I want to delete the notes I wrote about him.
Why?
Because I don’t want to remember the memories it brings.
He is now just part of the past and I want to keep him there.
Not drag him along with my present days or my futures.
What about writing about him now?
I am just writing about a character!
Nothing else!
Yes, so it will be best to leave him in the past and not drag him along with memories that’s written down on the past.
What about the memories in my head?
Well as long as I don’t write it out
They won’t matter. They are just imaginary thoughts!